Hey, YOU!
Always been awhile. Like the wind, the year just passed by like thin air. Where are you? How have you been?
I’ve been everywhere… Lost in my thoughts. In my senses. Lost in the person in me. Where am I heading? What am I doing? Where will this lead me? My heart- YES, MY HEART! It’s been filled with tiny bits of everything, of everywhere. I am no certain. Where is my heart? Where am I? How will this unfold for me? Have I been taking care of you, heart? Did I make you stronger? or more vulnerable? I’m a weirdo.
Somehow, the place doesn’t feel like I still belong. Or is it me I don’t belong in me anymore? Where is my answer? My heart is not in place. Not in peace. Neither my head. What is it I long for? What will make you happy, heart? What will let go of you?
It feels like I’ve been astray in a place I have long abandoned. Where is my peace? Where is my place? Why are you lost?
I’m NO broken — but it feels like I can storm in tears all year-round. Is my heart heavy? YES!, NO!, YES!, NO! It’s light! YES, it’s light as a feather. But it’s weighing me down — and I’ve been stubbornly hefty. Heavy of me. Heavy of my own headspace, of my own heart place.
You are no right, neither wrong of how you feel, of your emotions. You are always entitled to every bit of it- of YOU!
Yes, YOU! — HEY, YOU! You’ve been tough. You’ve been bold. You’ve been amazing! It’s okay!!! Is it okay? YES — you are fine just you are. Stay still. You’ve always got it. You’ve always been straight ahead.
Form you. Form you again, again, again, and again.
Don’t be afraid to be you again. Don’t!
Get up! Get up and try again. Life will always knock you down. The question is, are you going to get back up or just stay down? Pull up! Pull up! Pull up! Give a fight! Always be a ‘Führer’ of your own! Be a Hitler of yourself.
I love you! I love you! I always love you. I always do…
I am proud of you! LAUGH AT YOU! Laugh till you cry! You deserve it! Radiate in you the joy of no reason. You deserve it! You deserve joy for no reason, just JOY. Just YOU! You are never lost. Your heart is always, and always there — embrace YOU! Embrace the place in your heart you feel lost! Keep on!
THANK YOU, YOU! Thank you for falling in love so hard that it hurts so much. YES- it hurts so much. YES, LOVE!
LOVE — the most beautiful thing in the world that made you lose yourself. But LIFE is not worth living without LOVE. Choose love, choose it over and over again. Fall deep! Fall DEEPER! Fall hard! Fall HARDER- for LIFE, for LOVE, for YOU!
Always,
ME xxxx
