My Raw Hart

It’s okay. I know what you’re going through, and it’s not easy.
It’s hard to keep it all in.
I feel like death is coming slowly, and I’m grasping for air.
It’s strange how something beautiful can change into something unfamiliar.
Something sweet turning sour.

I want to understand how, why, and what happened.
It was like waking up from a beautiful dream. A dream that felt like forever.
I wish I could put into words how I’m feeling and why.
A love I thought I knew so well, but maybe I didn’t.

Is it really time to let a good thing die?
I feel like I’m already letting go before it ends, and my heart is crying a river.
Maybe it’s better to prepare my heart for the worst, so it’s easier when things get tougher.
Autumn shows us how beautiful letting go can be.
No regrets.

I’m happy you were mine and I was yours.
I loved you with all of me.
I love everything about you — your mind, soul, body, and you.
If I could go back, I’d still choose you and love you the same.
We are beautiful.
We are magic.

Thank you for everything you made me feel.
I wish we had more time.
I wish it wasn’t the end.
But it is.
Even if it’s ending, I’ll continue loving you because that’s what love is.
You hurt me.
You made me sad.
You broke me.
But it’s okay.
It’s not entirely okay, but I will get over it.
I will find another life to live.
I will be alright.

We are two vibrant souls, and I love that about us.
When I loved you, I chose you every day.
But our stars are not aligned.
Our dreams are on different paths.
I don’t see our future in your eyes.
You made it difficult for me to see things through.

I once knew a wonderful love.
But I let it go.
I long for that kind of love now, even though I wasted it before.

I understand how much you love yourself, your dreams, and your reality.
Thank you for sharing your mind with me, a mind like the ocean, beautiful and endless.
There are so many things to say and tell.
I wish we could be more than this.
I wish we had forever to love, but the universe doesn’t agree.

I’m letting you go, not because I stopped loving you, but because it’s the right thing to do.
It’s the only thing left to do.
It’s sad how something so beautiful can end.
But yes, sometimes it’s time to let good things die.
Even if this ends, it ends well.
It was a great run and a wonderful moment shared.
Though it didn’t start quite right, we made it through.
But not enough to last.

Nothing lasts forever.
Some relationships serve their purpose and then end.
It’s funny and ironic how life and love turn out this way.
But it’s still beautiful.
Meeting your soul and learning to love you is wonderful.
If you ask about my next life and love, I’ll still choose love again and again.

I need to find my place again, to be whole in my universe.
I will find my way back to life and love.
What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger, and you make me stronger.
It’s ironic how one beautiful thing can turn strange, but if it stayed a beautiful flower, it would never become a wonderful part of life.

If we were a book, I’d never get tired of rereading our chapter.
I’ll cry the first time, the second, and the third, but eventually, I’ll smile.
I’ll heal and see it differently.
It would be a special chapter that becomes ordinary.
And then, I’ll be far from our universe, in another lifetime, living another story.

I’ll leave our book on an old shelf.
I won’t glance at it or care anymore.
It will be a book I once had.
Someone I once loved.

**wrote this a long time ago when my heart was astray…</3